Isn't getting from bad to worst ?

hello humans beings , kind of feel like blogging . Did you guys ever being feel left out ? Did you guys every feel what kind of feeling is it where by , you clique going out with their partner and only you don't have any ? Did you ever feel extra like you didn't get to go out with your friends for a period of time ? Some of us will , some maybe , some may don't even feel so , cause they don't really bother . I notice I'm one of the person that concern all of the above that i listed on the top , I'm fear of losing my friends , I'm fear of being left out , fear of going out with friend which all having theirs partners where by i don't even have , I'm fear of going out with family and left my friends although is family day . But sometimes , i used to have the type of thinking where by families to me are NOT IMPORTANT AT ALL . With this NOT IMPORTANT AT ALL Gives me a strike on my head . Now what i think is that family will always come first , friends always goes second . Seriously , nowadays i kind of having problems in my mind and confusion flying all around my head . Having these four friends in my life is my happiest thing , they are just like my brother and sisters . They are always with me whenever i need them badly , i just feel so great to have them in my life . I know sometimes those attitude i gave them is totally unacceptable , but humans do have attitudes . So cant blame anyone , only to changed it yourself . We used to go out as a group , from a big group and being splits into don't know how many parts , and only left with four of us that's always being together . We used to go out together frequently , then slowly i cant get to go out frequently already , so left with you three . And you guys did asked me out , but Saturday and Sunday I'm always having family days . Sometimes i really wanted to go out and find you guys but , later i got to face with my family members . Making me feeling super depressed and feel like bursting out , i don't know whether you guys knows how i feel , but i really feel sorry . Me and a cheerful girl , we go out used to have jokes and every where we go sure to hear our voice of laughter . Now she's having a stead which is now my brother , they are kind of busying dating together , we also get to go out together sometimes . There's a time i was damn pissed off with they two as i think her boyfriend is kind of too over , so i got my blood boiled and shouting at him . At that time , we both sat down to cool down ourselves and we got back together like last time . And A girl that loves to drink soup , she's one of my dearest too , whenever the cheerful girl wasn't free , i will need to talk to someone urgently she is one of them that's always here for me . We both used to have some conflicts between each other , and now everything had just being untied . Now she's also kind of having a partner too , so i didn't want to made her standing at a position whereby she didn't know who to choose . So i decided to moved off , yes although i started to move off . You guys may say , is you wanted to end up in this way , you shouldn't be complaining . I'm not complaining ! I just wanted them to be happy with their loves , smile from their faces is what i wanted to see from them . But i still kind of missing the past , whereby we used to laugh and sit together chit chatting . I really miss those time . Can say everyone's changing to a different kind of person .

To the person : I hope you know I'm talking about you , brother violent cant settle things out , you're going to 15th already , i know you're concern us but seriously anything really happen i don't want you to used violence . This matter is small problem only i hope you can just washed it away from your mind . Loves

Anyway , Happy 8th Month Anniversary . Sorry it's spoilt by me .